2 points for honesty?

The hardest part about dishonest is the dis. Why would someone set out to lie to me? it makes me really think about the things i say and the reasons i've shaded the truth. i can embellish A LOT. I think generally most people know that I'm doing that, but when I think of times i've actually lied to people, either because i didn't want a negative reaction, i thought they'd be hurt, etc... whatever the reason, is it just seems so insulting. do those people really want to be protected? when i've been hurt and lied to, what is it i really think? Wow this deception is so much easier to handle then the truth? i'm so glad someone lied to me. Now i'm an awful liar, and it is my intention to just be honest with people, mainly because i'm not good at lying and forget that i have, but really you get the idea.

I think personally I just end up feeling stupid for believing lies, and not seeing them coming. So how do i stop feeling stupid?