The thing about life is

That it's messy and complicated, and sometimes you don't know how to process it. Sometimes it makes me cry a little. Sometimes I don't like it and sometimes it's awkward. I especially hate the awkward parts. I hate it when I'm sad, because I don't really know what to do about that. "Hi it's me and I'm sad." What kind of phone call is that to make? The thing is, I'm not really sad, until I'm sad. Then I'm awful. Sometimes I wonder if life is ever going to change, but of course I mean for me, and I mean a change that I'd want, not some awful changes that I don't choose. Obviously. And that's where I'm at today. Well somewhere between that and feeling awful about the way I look, the way I feel and how much money I spent poorly. I wish life was a little less exhausting.